Tuesday, May 2, 2017
It always happens after completing a high-pressure project, turning in the last assignment for one of my seven-week grad classes, or wrapping up an intense writing contract.
I don’t know what to do with myself.
I’m tempted to call this scenario the black hole syndrome. It’s akin to falling into an abyss for a short time after pouring out my heart on the above-mentioned tasks.
As I stated earlier, I don’t know what to do with myself. I pick up a book, read a few pages, and then trade that book for a different one. I pace the house. I grab my computer, write a few lines, save the work, close the document, open another, and repeat this process several times. It’s like I’m caught in a loop of nothingness.
This post alone is the fifth one I’ve worked on today. I’ve typed a few lines, put it away, opened another document, closed that document, and reopened this one. I cannot get my mind to focus.
Maybe no one else experiences this phenomenon, but I sort of feel like I’ve lost my sense of purpose for a period of time.
That can’t be true, though. In fact, I know that’s not true.
We all have a purpose.
As I pick up the Scriptures, I find words of encouragement.
- Isaiah 43:1 reminds me that I am God’s child.
- Jeremiah 29:11 reminds me that God has a plan for me.
While our main purpose (to follow Christ) never fades, our other purposes in life may have seasons. That truth is proclaimed in Ecclesiastes 3:1, “There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens.”
Because I like to be active, waiting for my next assignment isn’t easy. But time between projects can be put to good use. In fact, as I read Scripture, I’m reminded that rest, the antithesis of restlessness, is an important component in preparation for that next assignment.
- Leviticus 25:5 tells us that even land is to have periods of rest to remain productive.
- 1 Samuel 30:9-10 provides an example of a number of soldiers who were exhausted from battle and needed rest before they could continue on their mission.
- Genesis 2:2 gives us a primary example to follow as God himself declared a period of rest after six days of creation.
- The gospels recount times when Jesus needed a short respite from his work.
Rest is necessary. I get that. But, in all honesty, I’m struggling to attain that desperately needed antonym to restlessness.
Have you experienced times of restlessness? What did you do to counteract your restless state?
Feel free to share your thoughts in the comment section ~ Jill
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